Facing Fear

 

 

I, like many others, have set several goals that I want to achieve in 2015.

The first of which has a deadline.

That deadline is almost here and I have, at this point, successfully pumped myself full of self-doubt.

The self-doubt has become so great that I subconsciously and unknowingly self-sabotage.  Bad decisions, terrible internal voices that tell me I am not ready, lack of motivation, lack of confidence, inadequate feelings, the almighty “oh, you still have time” and then even worse “maybe this goal you just won’t make… try again next time”.

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I don’t want to try again.   I don’t want to miss this first goal I set for myself.

I had plenty of time to prepare.  I knew this was coming since November of last year.  I have had more than enough time to hone my craft.

So, why is it that I am no where near what I had in mind as being “ready”.

Doubt

  Self-sabotage

   Lack of motivation

Comparison

Fear

I know I am being vague when it comes to the goal itself.  That’s the thing

                                                               There are a total of 5 people that know what it is.

                                                                                                                                                      It is that scary for me.

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End of February.

Goal 1.

It’s there.  It isn’t going anywhere.  It is up to me to really figure out if I am ready for it, if it’s self-doubt or if I just need a little more time.

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Whatever it is, I need to remember…

Goal 1 might be a failure – but I am not.

Cheers

Monday Motivation – Keeping the Momentum

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Remember when last week I made the statement that I was taking back my life and creating an equal work/life balance?

Well, I did it.

The gym and I have made amends.   It kicked my ass – I was sore – and it was great.

That gym and I?  We are becoming BFF’s again.

If you remember, Monday morning I got my butt up before 5am and ran to the gym, lifted and ran back home.

The rest of my week in fitness looked a little like this:

Tuesday

4:23am – Alarm

5:00am – Upper weights before class

5:30am – Taught the new Round 60 TurboKick

4:45pm – Taught again!  TurboKick Round 60

Wednesday

4:35am – Alarm

4:55am – 1.25 mile run to the Gym – Lower Weights – 1.25 Mile run back home

Thursday

4:23am – Alarm

5am – Lunges, Situps

5:30am – Taught Insanity

4:45pm – Taught a second Insanity

Friday

4:45am – Alarm

5am – Slow run 1.25 mile run to the gym – That hill kicked my bootay.   Upper weights – 1.25 mile run home.

Saturday

8am – Subbed for a gal at the Y.  Offered Insanity to a class of 14!

 

My nutrition was slightly better last week.  Sugar is still a huge deal for me.  And Diet Soda.  They are a real life struggle.  It’s a deep love the three of us have.

The weekend didn’t go so well in the nutrition area.  A lot of booze, pizza, burgers, cookies… you get the picture.   It’s summer.  I have a lot of fun.  One step at a time.

 

Goals This Week:

Fitness

  • Make the gym every morning M-F
  • Add an early Saturday morning distance run of at least 5 miles. (which is a LOFTY goal considering Friday is my B-day and we have plans that involve liquor that evening)

Nutrition –

  • Add in a few more glasses of water each day
  • Cut back on the sugar Monday – Thursday.   What about Friday, you ask?

It’s my birthday!

I eat frosting on my birthday.

It is straight up ILLEGAL not to.

 

Cheers to staying on track, keeping the momentum going and accomplishing new goals.

 

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